Higgledy-piggledy.

It's heartbreaking, knowing that you're left all alone at home as all your friends are out having fun without you. I think friends shouldn't make you feel shitty. Mom always say that I always prioritize my friends. Maybe that is the reason why. I don't know. I think I need an aura cleansing. I just need to know if what I'm doing or facing through is good for me. Everything around me, are they good for me?

It is also heartbreaking that the one person who wants to be with me (I think, hehe) and likewise, is so far away. So far away that it feels impossible to be with. The one person who says "That's why I'm here." And yet so far away. The one person who wants to crawl in bed with me to watch a movie *blush*. And yet so far away. :

It is heartbreaking, when family members are diagnosed with any sort of sickness. Dad is sick. He has been visiting the hospital for several days to shoot up some blood pines. Granny is in the hospital. She started to "meracau". I think kitty has cancer.

Thus, in no particular order, that is the update of my life. Which is causing me to mourn.

One funny part is that, my work, after the last week, my sacrifice finally paid off. I actually felt great seeing my event all appearing in newspapers and television. And I felt relieved! Guess, to feel good about something, you got to sacrifice in being sad about something else. :